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[19 Apr 2005|03:29pm] |
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Hayden has been acting strange around me, ever since Sunday during our study session. He just abruptly left giving me some lie for an excuse.
I didn't really quiz him on it though, I mean maybe he had to do something he was uncomortable talking about. But he won't look at me in classes, or during the day. It's all really strange.
But maybe I'm over reacting, maybe I jumped ahead of myself. I thought ya know we could be friends, maybe he's just a helpful person... Just a study buddy, not a friend.
I have to return some notes to him tomorrow, I'll ask him what's up tomorrow... maybe.
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[01 Apr 2005|04:53pm] |
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So the past six months, yea they just flew by for me. Well, for me, in this state I am in anyhow. I wake up in the Hospital Wing, thinking it is time to go to the Hogwarts Express and I wake up to find it's MARCH! Well actually it's April now, but that's not the point.
It's March, and I can't remember six months of my life. SIX MONTHS! That would be September, November, December, January, February and March! All I know is what Liz has told me, well she hasn't really told me anything. She just gives me clues really. Oh and then there was Vertigo... that was interesting. To say the least.
Oh and then there was that whole Mother slapping me, and getting angry that I almost died. (Cause I planned it, in her warped mind.) Yea that's right mother! YOU HAVE A WARPED MIND! And I found out my father is dying of cancer.
And then after I hear all of this, I wish I could have just stayed in acoma for the rest of my life.
-Ian
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| Killer... |
[10 Jan 2005|09:36pm] |
I'd don't know maybe I am. Normally I would make this private, but as everyone already knows about this, no point in not keeping in public.
So Dex through a blasting spell at me, and in all my rage I sent one back at him. Of coarse he was standing in front of a window and he went flying through. So now, until Dex is all good and well I'm labeled as a killer.
It's true, no one can tell me any differnetly. For Merlin's sake even Professor Lupin said that to me, she took away my wand as well. So yes, you can all attack me. Yes that would be the perfect ending to my lovely life.
Should I tell you what I'm talking about, here it is, in sequencial order.
1. Lizzie promised me she would always remember I loved her.
2. I found out during Christmas Break my father is dying of Cancer.
3. Lizzie cheated on me. With enemy, Dex Clearwater.
4. Lizzie says she didn't mean to cheat on me
5. Lizzie admits she's no longer in love with me, but I still am with her.
6. Todays DADA lesson.
So please, if there should be a seventh number on that list, let me die. It might be the most peaceful ending to this heartache and headache.
Until next time,
Ian
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[09 Jan 2005|04:29pm] |
Today has started with a bomb. Alright so really, this all started when I came back to Hogwarts. (my home away from home.) Liz had betrayed hurt me. She says she didn't mean too, and I believe her, I think.
( Privacy Charmed )
I'm getting a mirgraine from this all...
Ian
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| OWL TO LIZ (Private) |
[18 Dec 2004|11:45am] |
Dear Lizzie,
I'm home now. No one is really speaking though. It's strange, my father hasn't even come out of his room. I know that he hates me, and that because I am a Hufflepuff he'd been dissapointed in me. It doesn't make sense that Mum wanted me to come back this year.
Remember I love you, and can't wait to see you!
Love,
Ian
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[16 Nov 2004|11:09am] |
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Today I met a girl, she's new. I don't exactly know how I feel about her. Her name is Elizabeth, I don't know if she'll let anyone call her Liz, or perhaps Beth... She says she liked the common folk. Most girls don't, for example Bronte. She was my friend at first and then Shane came into the picture, the quidditch player. The quidditch players always get what they want. I just hope Elizabeth doesn't fall into that trap.
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It's getting a bit better it seems, maybe I won't always be the one put to the side, for once.
Ian
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I'm going crazy I truely am. Evere since Bronte and Shane saw each othe ron the train they have been getting closer and closer, and I am just left behind in the dirt, I should have guessed she wouldn't be intrested in me. But just why couldn't I have what i want this one time?
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